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As I was working out with a trainer this morning I was discussing my loss of that loving feeling about CrossFit.  He asked me if I knew why it wasn’t fun anymore?  Very good question.  Ultimately I’m sure the whole “timed” workout stressors along with the job stressors will do that.   But what is truly the root cause?

As the morning has gone on I have pondered that question.  I began to wonder if I am putting too much mental weight on the fact that I have many weaknesses to overcome in order to compete.   I also questioned whether I will be willing to make the much-needed sacrifices.

Then I realized I’m just over thinking about things that are not even here yet.  Worrying about tomorrow.  That is such a waste of perfectly good today.

At that moment of realization I changed my way of thinking from a negative to a positive.    What does that mean exactly?   Instead of spending my time dwelling on whether I want to compete or whether I’m even good enough to compete, I need to be doing the workouts I need to do to prepare.

Getting lost in the noise of a major decision can literally paralyze us to the point of doing nothing. 

So I have put on my big girl panties and decided that I would make a list focusing on the things I can do as I move forward. 

I will note the big picture, but then narrow it back to what I can truly do in pursuit of the goal.  I’m already doing things to help.  But focused intent hasn’t been one of those things for over a month now.

I haven’t always been a list person but have found lately that the better my list, the more focused I can be.  Will that help me revive my love for CrossFit?  There is a great possibility.  I will move forward focused on today, rather than worrying about tomorrow.