Strange title for the morphing of a fit woman, but it’s so fitting. I haven’t shared this with my friends and some will likely read it here first. Of late I’ve lost that loving feeling for CrossFit. insert a sharp intake of breath…
I’ve heard that it’s just a phase and will pass but in the meantime I want that feeling back. That joy of having my booty handed to me on any given day. That joy of accomplishment, that passion for beating me yesterday. It’s been almost two weeks since I set foot in the box. That’s just not me. I’ve been going at least 3 times a week for almost 2 years and suddenly I’m drawn to something just a little less stressful.
I finally had an epiphany this morning and I’m relieved. Over the past two months my day job (as I call it) has gotten exponentially more stressful. Our company acquired another company and blah, blah, blah which is equal to my work-load almost doubling. I’m good for it, up for the task. What I realized just this morning is that I may not be cut out for two stressful activities at once.
I feel certain that my crossfitting friends reading this will now set about an intervention. They all know how hard I’ve worked over the past 2 years and won’t allow me to sit by the way side. I just need to determine exactly the right mix of stressors for me between the day job and the CrossFit.
The sheer fact that I finally figured out that I had lost the loving feeling and why is huge progress. People get bored and need a change. I don’t get bored with CrossFit. I love it, I have loved it since day one.
Now to figure out the path back to that loving feeling.
You see, doing nothing to isn’t an option. I’ve been doing strength and skill work and all the while eating clean but it’s just not CrossFit or the excitement surrounding it.
I spent too many years fighting my way out of the mess I made of my body to not care for it and nurture it every day.
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Great post…Balance and finding out what works for you is critical. You are doing that here! We could toss ideas back and forth ad nausea um although this is something for you to figure out. Stress at work and at X-Fit can pull you apart literally! Work and X-Fit are going to be there tomorrow…Maybe step back and focus on what really got you excited about X-Fit to begin with would be a place to start. Unsolicited advice sucks and I just tossed some out to you…Anyways keep up your great work!!!
Cultfit your comments are always welcome! And thank you for you comments on both the post and blog!
Right there with ya!!!! Work is killing me right now. Stress, stress, stress. Sometimes I wonder if I really want the double whammie from a WOD too. I’m so glad to hear someone else say this! I have no answers but I do think being aware of when that loving feeling is lost is key. It means you’re paying attention. You know what’s best for you and as long as you’re paying attention, you’ll make the right decisions. It’s when we stop paying attention that we get in trouble.
Thanks Caroline! Part of me says “suck it up Buttercup”, but then the reality is that too much chaos creates more chaos and eventually burn-out. Thanks for you comments!
I have been CrossFitting for about 4 1/2 years now. In that time I have fallen in and out of love with it a few times. It does come and go, just like any relationship. The key is, making sure it means enough to you to work at it. And I know how far you’ve come so I know it means a great deal to you. The tough part for me is continuing to go and do the workouts when you don’t love it, basically just pushing through until something clicks again and when it does you will feel like you just discovered CrossFit for the first time, all over again. Promise.
passion for beating the me of yesterday – Love that thought.
Ebb and flow. As you stepped back from CF, you may have reminded yourself of the exercises you once did and remember how much you loved that workout and the feeling and results you saw from it. You love for CF isn’t gone, just needed a mini-vacation, I believe. You’d tell me that CF is where you’d leave your stresses, so for you to recognize that it was, in fact, doing the opposite for you is, as you said, a good starting place to process your next move.